theshatteredsystem's Blog

does anyone know how to reset their password from photobucket, without going to the email account? Cause somehow my yahoo account (that we used for the said photobucket) got deleted and the only way I can get the password is by sending it to the now non-existant yahoo account. HELP!!!

Katharine

Today's Aquarius Horoscope: Your positive attitude has always helped you out in life. But right now, it will enable you to satisfy your growing need to be socially useful. By being able to take things as they come and adapt to any kind of group situation you are not accustomed to, you will show other people how to do the same. People look to you for clues about how to behave more often that you think. So today, you should always try to set a good example for others, especially children

This song gets Mystyk and Femme-Mystique...aroused

Look it up: It's Taboo by Koda Kumi

www.avexstarsearch.com/

TO NEW YORK OR BUST!!

Seriously, I signed up and if I get in, I gotta do everything possible to pass the audition. OMG THIS IS MY DREAM!!

Today's Aquarius Horoscope: An upcoming family gathering offers you a great opportunity to reconnect with someone who can give you a fresh perspective on where you want to take your life -- so make every effort to go! There are patterns in your life that you want to change, and it's the people who love you the most who can help you do it. Instead of resisting their input, take it all in and be grateful they care so much about you. You're lucky to have these people as a resource, don't take it for granted.
Updated 09-17-2008

Aquarius Description: Aquarians are born looking for ideologies to which they can stubbornly cling. They refuse to budge whenever an issue involves what they believe to be a matter of principle. As in the case of the Aquarian Abraham Lincoln, society greatly benefits when these principles are noble.

Aquarius Positive Traits: Inventive, highly intrigued by others, caring, thoughtful, logical, scientific, a good communicator and loyal.

Aquarius Negative Traits: Self absorbed, rude and without tact, prone to eccentricity, unwilling to share ideas or fight for beliefs, voyeuristic curiosity about others and rude.    

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I don't think the idea of a family gathering should be causing worry but it is... *feels like hiding*

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I, Lora, went to therapy yesterday in place of Vanity. I had an interesting discussion with T. about the past ((abuse)) and whether it would be alright to disclose it to her. Of course, the general knowledge inside is that if anything is disclosed, SilentGirl will try to kill the body in any way possible. But luckily, our T was told this. She offered a possible solution, that we could talk about the events (that we've written here in our stories and talked about with jushere) but not name the person. She also said that if we ended up telling who did it, she felt no obligation to report the past abuse as long as we aren't in danger of it repeating (which to all knowledge, we aren't in danger). I don't know however. Our previous T said the same, but then he told Meadow that under a circumstance that it was a family member (which most of the ab*se was), he would report it.

I need to do some research on the subject, find out whether T could report...

Lora

As more intrusive thoughts invade our consciousness and interrupt our day with flashbacks, the Damned Child is upping the ante. Each "bad thought" (as she calls them) add one more cut to be inflicted upon the body tonight. We're up to 11 now, and it's not even noon yet. *swears*. Trying to do research on intrusive thoughts and possibly how to stop them, but not finding anything too good right now.

I gotta go eat and find a way to breathe.

~*Vanity*~

yeah so things aren't going good AT ALL! Sick of remembering what that sick bastard did, how he fucked our ass and fucked with our hearts and head. Sick of remembering bad stuff in the dark that makes us wanna SCREAM and hide. Sick of remembering how the dad's roomate took pictures and degraded us. Sick of remembering how the mom yelled and hit us, how the sister died and made Katie so upset.

Sick of being...

((oh boy today's gonna be FUN))

This is Miasma. I'm a child/teen maybe?, have no real age. I'm chronically depressed, and am drawn out when the depression gets to the fronters (read: people who handle this world and work and such). I told Cindy (another insider) that I don't wanna be out when we go home cuz I'll cut and just lay there and not do any journaling or homework, so she said ok and she's trying to find someone to come out. Umm...I realize people reading this may be REAL confused about who everyone inside is, I promise someone inside will tell you all about EVERYONE tommorrow, ok?

Miasma

Thanks to commenters, wistfullyhis and eyes. Comments appreciated greatly. Tired here, hungry too, printed out a survey some of us would rather DIE than take, about abuse. Gotta check what happened and it's so HARD. Don't want to think about what our uncle did, don't want the flashbacks and body memories to come back, never mind the body JUST fucking got one not 2 seconds ago.

Damn I hate life right now.

...or so the experts say.

Still getting flashbacks and body memories from time to time, but they're intense.

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THEY DON"T EVEN GO BY FUCKING TRIGGERS ANYMORE! THEY'RE JUST COMING ANYTIME THEY FEEL LIKE IT I GUESS AND IT JSUT HURTS SO MUCH AND WE CAN'T FOCUS AND ARE SO OUT OF IT LOST IN THE PAST CAN'T STOP IT AND WHAT'S WORSE WE TOOK A SURVEY ABOUT ABUSE AND HAD TO TELL WHAT HAPPENED. Shit....

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Gonna update our story I guess

I.HAVE.BEEN.INVADED

invasion

intrusion

invasive

.....

oh god no...

selene

Hello everyone. My name is Cindy, nice to meet you all.

I promised the littles inside that I'd print out some coloring pages for them to color sometime soon, I must get around to doing that. Also, I want to print out some of our old journals on-line, so I'll have to do that. Classes today have gone surprisingly well, I think I aced an MCAS Prep test, even without Sean's help.

We have therapy today at 4:00, looking forward to it immensely.

Cindy

Went rollerblading on Saturday. body still HURTS like all hell! Legs, arms, and we got a stomachache (rollerblading unrelated) ((constipation probably -+_+-)) but we're tired too. Grrr...

Triggered like all hell at the rollerblading place by songs, SIed a bit (well, Maelstrom/The Damned Child/Selene did). Hangin' out w/ LEA now, she kicks ass! She writes poetry and all that, really fun to hang out with her!

Argh, anyhoo! Got a therapy appointment on Wednesday, gotta talk about the littles and triggers and all such. She gave us an assignment last time to write down situations and such that cause anxiety, which is a huge problem for all of us. Didn't do it  so gotta do it tonight maybe...hmm...gonna go on now. See y'all later!

~Shauna~